What are you hanging on to that makes you small?

Throwing myself at opportunities

I needed to say yes even though it’s my ridiculously busy time in my muggle job. My friends often laugh and say, don’t speak to her in September, you won’t get an answer. It’s a whirlwind month of events and I’m exhausted, BUT I promised myself this would be a year of throwing myself at opportunities.

The evening was fantastic! I was billed last out of three for the demos and took the audience through a successful remote viewing session before going on to a full appointment book of readings.

What hit me the hardest was that I manifested this success. I know that I am powerful and a strong reader and teacher, however despite this, a couple of years ago I would’ve made myself ill thinking about it. I would probably have said no in case the time of year effected my energy. If I had said yes I would most likely have taken the day off work to prepare and felt sick. All of that because of the worry of failure.

Brain fog on a psychic night

I was still worried about how the exhaustion would add to my brain fog with remembering words or what I needed to say in my demo. In reality, nobody cares. So long as you’re you and speak with confidence about your subject, it doesn’t matter if you can’t find the word you need. It adds to the performance and makes you relatable.

To not know where you stand is not failure; it is the essence of being human.

I found it very profound as I have been holding myself back from the unknown at times in my life for fear of failure. This is a theme in about 90% of my readings at the moment. It is especially poignant with those I read for on Friday night at the bookshop. There is often a psychic night theme or repetitiveness in readings booked close together.

So what’s holding you back?

I felt it strongly that everyone that I’ve read for is teetering on the edge. One super sturdy and ‘sorted’ energy just couldn’t see herself as this. They need that one deep breath, maybe a couple of months of inhale before they hold that breath and make the leap. Just to be sure of all of the pro’s, con’s, to complete any required learning or research before heading off down the desired path.

These people need to become their true selves and believe in themselves. Truly think about – when have you actually really ever failed with something that you have reached for? Would you let anything fail? If it doesn’t work out the way you want then you always shift and adapt. You don’t fall down and let the world explode.

Each stumble (and there will be challenges – we’re human – and that’s life), is a lesson. What did I learn from that in order to move on or do it better in the future?

What forgotten things are you hanging on to that makes you small?

So I’ve talked before about not shrinking for anyone anymore. Set your boundaries and stick to them. Be bold and admit who you are.

However, there is something that I hadn’t properly considered. I’d thought about it, but not realised the true impact until a reading on Friday night. What might you be holding on to ‘physically’ that’s anchoring you down? Not a memory or emotion, but something that you have in your space and energy that is not serving you well.

I’ll give you an example. I saw that the person I was reading for at the psychic night had a few of the same things in her home that I do. When I brought it up she loudly exclaimed OH MY GOD THAT’S IT. These things are documents to do with a divorce and electronic messages from exes. Their presence in the background, even though they’re not looked at or thought about are a negative that’s pinning us down somewhere. A bit like when you try to get out of the car when you’ve forgotten to take your seatbelt off.

Why have you kept that rejection letter, bad report, police report, texts from toxic relationships, photo of someone that’s devastated your life?

The solution

I saw it as clear as day… the papers had to be shredded and taken out of the house to the bins. Not burned. Which is unusual as burning is usually the way to release something , but we worked out between us that the destruction had to be personal and owned. Not left to fire or something else to destroy it.

The deletion of the electronic stuff felt harder. Maybe because it resonated? My advice was to have a close friend around, to just say – I know this sounds silly, but I need you here while I hit delete, then we need to have a drink, eat snacks and have a laugh.

I felt that an energy shift would happen immediately.

However I must caveat that. I Googled about keeping your divorce papers and all the results said you should keep your Decree Absolute in case you want to get married again, or prove the divorce. You can apply for a new one through the courts. Also, if you need things as evidence for a court case or it’s important that you keep them outside of a simple need for an energy cleanse, then do not destroy anything.